still alive

 

i watch you from the sidelines

stealing every glimpse

i die everytime i

wish i touch your lips

it stabs me deep,
this ignorance of yours,
still i fight myself,
to become yours

faded, is everything inside me,

still, vibrant is my numb heart

blackened, is my zeal for life

still, i wait for a new start.

queen of nihilness

here lies the grandeur,

the fakeness bedazzled.

she ruled the seven seas,

and angels beheld.

but death is invincible,

meagre is life.

she stayed with the material,

her soul sublimed

frozen tears : version 2

heavy rains come falling down
feeling the cold fire
of the frigid emotions my
life's a fuckin satire

unknown shadows haunt me at night
an eldritch feeling you aint in sight
makes me frantic makes me sad
and my eyes are fuckin wet

tears are frozen
heart is burning
vivid memories
of the past
eyes aghast

a river wants to flow but it wont
a door wants to open but wont
time has stopped and flowers wont bloom
need is gone  its night of doom

a storm wants to come
thunder wants to roll
air is depressed
even death has died

we were so happy aint we
but u didnt fuckin tell me
why were u not by my side
why did u leave me then

what i messed i cant correct
waiting for death to resurrect
what i want i cant get
and my eyes are fuckin wet

frozen tears : version 1

heavy rains, falling up
feeling the fire
of the frigid emotions
my life's a satire
my eyes are wet


unknown shadows
haunt me at night
an eldritch feeling
you aint in my sight
makes me frantic
makes me sad
and my eyes are wet

tears are frozen
heart is burning
vivid memories
of the past
eyes aghast
a river wants to flow
but it wont

a door wants to open
someone's waiting
but time has stopped
flowers wont bloom
the need is gone

a storm wants to come
thunder wants to roll
air is depressed
even death has died
what i want
i cant get
my eyes are wet

romeo and juliet

romeo and juliet
were once in love
romeo and juliet
wished they'll fly like birds

came one autumn and
leaves began to fall
how could they know of
this was the end of all
that they ever had and
that they would have
what they could think of was a storm
but they were incognisant
of the tempest to be born

and they lost it all away
there was nothing left to say
how could someone know that
they've lost their way astray

romeo and juliet
were once in love
romeo and juliet
had wished something earlier

death was on its way and they
had something with'em to say
but she was broken
and he was shattered
what they thought of
had now withered
season was about to change
and fear was growing
high upon the moon

and they lost it all away
there was nothing left to say
how could someone know that
they lost their way astray

dawn has come
the moon is bright
a wolf is growling
out in the night
there's no sign of sun
hell has just begun
what can one do
when its all set and done

romeo and juliet
were once in love
and will be
till the end of eternity

Unfurl

releasing the vapor, into the lung,
letting the wings, unfurl


this is a sketch inspired from the song 'unfurl' by 'Katatonia' ,one of the most beautiful songs ever written.

ek guzarish

कभी झाँक के देखो दिल में मेरे 

दबा पड़ा है भावनाओं का समंदर 

और कुछ टूटे-फूटे खाली पड़े 

वीरानों के खँडहर 

कर दो इन वीरानों को आबाद
बस दे दो अपनी एक छोटी सी मुस्कान
पी लो हमारे आंसुओं को
और समां लो अपने अन्दर 

जली हुई उम्मीदों और
सूने पड़े झरोखों के अलावा 

एक आवाज़ भी है इस सन्नाटे में
तुम्हे ही पुकारती है खामखा
बड़ी बेकरारी है बर्बादी में
बहती हुई नदी के किनारे कहाँ होते हैं
होता है बस एक बहाव दिल्लगी में 

अंतहीन सीढ़ियों के ऊपर है मंजिल
चलते-चलते उम्र न बीत जाए
कभी अपने दिल से न पूछना
कहीं सच न उगल जाए 

और न ही ढूंढना अपने दिल के तहखाने में
बंद तालों में जो पंछी है
कहीं वो ना उड़ जाए 

ummeed

एक कश्ती कहीं डूब रही है 

पर मांझी को कोई फ़िक्र नहीं 

एक कटी पतंग कही उडी जा रही है 

उसकी डोर का कोई पता नहीं 

काली आंधी आसमान में छाई है 

पर पंछियों को परवाह नहीं 

कभी तो सूरज उगेगा 

येही सोच के उड़ गए हैं 

मंजिल का पता नहीं 

राह मुश्किल है 

पर परवाज़ का कोई अंत नहीं

तूफ़ान पूरे आगोश में है 

पर लौ को कोई परवाह नहीं 

मस्ती में झूम रही है, इठला रही है  
बुझने से डर नहीं रही है 

बल्कि डटकर मुकाबला कर रही है

आबो-हवा में अजीब सी खामोशी है 

पर साज़ को कोई परवाह नहीं 

अपनी ही धुन में रमा है 

कभी तो ये सन्नाटा मिटेगा 

इसी सोच में मलंग है 

कहीं तो होगा अश्कों का दरिया 

डूब जायेंगे जिसमें सब गम 

कल फिर दुःख आएँगे या 

यहीं पे जाएंगे थम 

मस्ताने से मौसम में 

ज़िन्दगी की परवाह नहीं 

आज है कल होगी की नहीं 

न जाने कहा जा रहे हैं 

किसी ने आवाज़ तक ना दी 

i'll lay my life (in front of you)

searching for a thing in a room dark
cant find it, i'm anxious
i know its precious
and you may want it too
you'll steal it from me
and i wont even resist

blaming people is an art
and you are good at it
i see the bull's eye
but i dont have a dart
can you help me find it apart
i see the skies bright
and the stars who died

pills playig with my mind
i've got some precious scars
i can feel them
but i cant touch them
can you point out where they are?

i see the road in front of me
but i dont see my destination
still i walk the path
waiting for sun to rise
i lie here beneath the moon and cry

angels die in front of me
and my hope is dead too
please tell me a way to get through
and i'll lay my life in front of you

untold love

visualizing the dream i had

last night i couldn't forget

coz you were there
and still you are every where

seasons change as time goes by
what remains is just the beautiful sky
and the untold love
that we in our past had

yeah i was a fool
and i didnt tell
that i loved you
oh yes its true
so can you please
come back to me
coz i just wanna be with you

visualizing the dream i had
last night i couldn't forget
coz you were there
and still you are every where